Today I will be writing as if this were a personal diary. I am currently in class and cannot for the life of me pay attention. Last night I went to bed at 3am which isn’t something I typically do (usually it’s more around 10–11pm). I am tired. I also do not know whether I should get out of a current talking stage. I also feel behind in my classes and feel as if I haven’t been dedicated to learning. I also do not have post-grad plans and that in itself is nerve wracking. All to say, I am not taking care of myself and I need that to change. I hope this is comforting for y’all to read as it truly is personal. After this class I have a two hour break before my work shift. I plan on just doing me. I want to shower, clean my room, eat, and watch my show. After work I plan to just relax, I don’t believe I have any crazy homework so I plan to just eat and sleep. I have not been in the gym for a while, usually that makes me happy. I hope to gain my spark back and have happiness from within. I am working on my thesis this semester and my feedback hasn’t been great within the last week. It’s taking a toll on how I perceive myself and isn’t a great confidence boost / motivator. I do not want to give up, I want to persevere and become the best me I can be. I focus too much on what others think, I don’t enjoy myself and I need to change that. Recruiters reach out with jobs and do not bother checking my lack of qualifications. These positions they offer require a masters yet I am still working on my bachelors. I am pursuing psychology and hope that somewhere out there someone will accept me without a license.
there’s a lot going on in my mind and I just need to take a minute to breath, maybe I’ll add meditation to my to-do list today :)
I hope all of you are having a great day, feel free to comment to start a conversation, I am here for you ❤
